"I am God's daughter, a Princess. Oh, I want to live up to it. To give God pleasure by being all I could be. All He wants me to be..."
I wanted to do His will in everything. I knew I would fail. It was quite depressing.
Then came a birthday a few years ago where I had come to understand things a bit differently so my thoughts couldn't follow the usual pattern. And I got this:
I tried... working my head off to please God, and it didn’t work. So I quit... I identified myself completely with [Jesus]. It is no longer important that I... have your good opinion, and
It summed up the exact way that I was going into that next year of my life.
I was, and am, no longer driven to impress God because Jesus has impressed Him for me. I get to rest in Him.
My life has changed so much. It is no longer all about needing to achieve and succeed because I have already got success as:
SUCCESS IS LIVING IN THE ACHIEVEMENT OF ANOTHER
Now I choose to live rather than achieve. That looks like facing the year, month or day breathing easy and moving a lot more freely. Needing to achieve can make us stand still in our tracks.
My obedience and motives will never be perfect or pure. But I can trust that His will is written on my new heart in the form of my desires and that He gives me the ability to do it. And I can just have a go at living, loving, giving knowing that any success is His work and He is big enough to fill the messy gaps.
How would things change for you if you lived in the benefit of Someone else having achieved everything needful on your behalf so you can just have a go at living?