Because I don't know about you but for all the times I have sensed God's love or even been overwhelmed by it, I easily doubt.
When I look at circumstances, I can wonder. But especially when I look at them against the Bible.
I read that Jesus has compassion on a widow. He tells her not to cry and raises her dead son back to life.
And it annoys me. And I want to ask: "So why do you not have compassion today? On me?"
It isn't that I haven't experienced God's love and help many times. Or that I don't realise that I am blessed. In fact, knowing my many blessings, wanting to ask a question like that makes me feel awful.
But experiencing His love and reading about it in the Bible don't stop us wondering where God is when we need Him, wondering what He's doing that is more important when we cry out and feel unheard.
But when we feel like that, we have lost sight. Of Jesus. He has been blotted out of our view of our lives.
We see the sickness and grief but not His agony as He suffered our pains in our place.
We see the ground we have been knocked down onto but not the scarred hand reaching out to help us up.
We see the arms of the world folded against us but not those of a loving Father always open wide.
We see our mistakes and failure and imagine a God who would turn away. We don't see the smile that is ever on us whatever we do.
And we really don't see the One who goes before us, preparing our way.
The One who marches with us, takes up a place in us and beside us and all around us.
The One who will not fail us or let us go, or forsake us.
We don't see what He is actually doing for us. The things He stops and starts and works on while we remain completely oblivious. Things - most things - we will never say thank you for because we don't know anything about them.
Jesus tells us when we help people not to make a big show of it; in effect being more concerned about what we look like doing the helping than the reason we are actually giving help.
He doesn't tell us to live in a way that isn't characteristic of who He is, how He does things. And so I love the sentence The Message adds that this hidden way is the very way God helps us.
When you do something for someone else, don’t call attention to yourself... don’t think about how it looks. Just do it—quietly and unobtrusively. That is the way your God, who conceived you in love, working behind the scenes, helps you out.
Matthew 6:2-4 MSG
However unlikely it may feel or look or seem today, be reminded of God's love for you. He conceived you in love - you are the result of a love that began by making you in secret and continues to work all things together for your good.
He says He loves us so we can picture Him right here right now and see His love - for us:
HE HAS SAID:
"I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down (relax My hold on you)! [Assuredly not!]
TAKE COMFORT and ARE ENCOURAGED and CONFIDENTLY AND BOLDLY SAY, The Lord is my Helper; I will not be seized with alarm [I will not fear or dread or be terrified]. What can man do to me?
(Hebrews 13:5-6 AMP)